Summer downtime has ended. The great quiet between school years has terminated, rather corruptly. Last week we had sixty Sisters at a silent retreat, and my family was at home engaged in leisure activities. Today a Catholic high school has a leadership retreat here, and the students are shouting and laughing in the library next to my desk. My husband and oldest daughter are at school registering for her senior year of high school, and tomorrow the twins register for their freshman year.
I feel tired and cranky and unmotivated. And I have a headache. Why can't I get excited about the coming year? I don't have even a vague sense of enthusiasm.
Days like this require discipline. I don't need feelings, enthusiasm or excitement or even happiness, to get the job done, I just need to go through the list and do what needs to be done. And as I work, eventually, my mood will change and I will begin to see some brightness in life. If not today, perhaps tomorrow, or the next. Meanwhile, work will have been done: guests will be registered, greeted, seen to their rooms. The world will continue to move forward and someone else somewhere will be spared from crankiness and tiredness, because I didn't get in their way.
Sometimes the only good I can contribute to the world is to not spoil it for someone else. That itself is an accomplishment I am willing to achieve.
Have a good day, you!
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